Hello! As some of you may know, I have been on this server since April 6th, 2017. And became staff near the end of April. I was promoted to Moderator sometime very early June. I was an admin for a short while back in October to January and ended up stepping back down to moderator, as my life was pretty rocky. And they decided to re-promote me on July 8th, 2018 to the FIRST senior moderator!! I wanted to make this post as I've almost been here for 2 years, and never did make an introduction, so I'd like to tell you my journey on swancraft, and a little about myself in the progress!
I was 14 when I first joined with my best friend and (fake) sister, Ellery. I joined with the idea that Ellery and I would pop in to play some survival, and one day just never pop in again. I was surprised by the amount of warm welcomes and kindness, but it seemed like just something to bring more players onto the server. We went ahead and did our own thing, played, built, whatever. After a few days, Siuans husband the co-owner at the time thought I was stealing from Ellery and almost banned me (Bastard.) if he did, I wouldn't have come back. After a few more days, I started to talk with staff and get a feel for that community aspect. To be honest, staff kinda stuck to me like a magnet, I remember bear following me around a lot, same with zyp! (no surprise, im great) Although I still can't wrap my head around as to why people actually like me, I'm not that great (this is a big mental issue ive been having lately, WHY DO SO MANY PEOPLE LIKE ME). Finally i jumped into one of the ts channels and was dragged into a staff channel where ALL the current staff were speaking, it was overwhelming and i was so quiet, but it felt so nice. Ellery was discovered by Zyp as an amazing builder, and they wanted to promote her to a builder on the server. I was a bit upset as my only friend was gonna leave me behind. So I became determined and I tried SO HARD to be promoted with her. Ratty (a player who has left us) gave me encouragement and told me if I got rejected, just try next time. When the promotions came we all patiently sat in the main channel of ts (mind you, I was with a couple other people who applied and it felt competition like in the channel at the time haha). We were ALL brought into the staff channel and congratulated on becoming new staff. It was an amazing day. I was a bit of a shit head when I became comfortable around staff (still am one!) but they seemed to like me anyway. I also had the dirtiest mind and made the grossest jokes, but weirdly enough, that helped me fit in!
More about myself on the matter, that time in my life was not the greatest, I felt like I was in a dark pit, and to be honest, I was starting to not really care about life (lil young for that I know, but it's true). My temperament and personality were kinda in the shit hole, and I had no fucking idea how to control my emotions. At the time my anxiety and depression were coming to a peak after 2 years of realizing I had these issues and never told any except close friends. I'm 16 now and throughout these many months, these people had become so close and dear to my heart. And they helped me through so much, SO MUCH! I couldn't ever thank them enough; Siuan, the admins who are sadly stepped down and even some admins still around! And so many of the staff who have come and go, honestly, you guys are the best. Throughout these months, my new friends had helped me stand up and gain the courage to ask for help. And I got it. My mind is so much healthier now AND my personality. I’ve grown so much as a person, maybe I'm the only one to notice though, but that's okay! I was even able to get a job because of the skills this server has taught me, and I think that's amazing. I know some people will find this post extremely stupid, that’s okay, I know some people haven't had these type of experiences before. It's most definitely rare for a Minecraft server to shape your life. But seriously, I love this server and this community so much, don't you ever forget it! Thank you guys for helping me with a lot.
And I know this really isn't an introduction, but I wanted to tell you some things about myself, how I got started here. I hope this wasn't obnoxious or cringe to read haha, I know I'm a silly, annoying girl. But I was going through old screenshots and posts and needed an outlet so I didn’t burst into tears.